News from the School of the Spirit Ministry
In this issue we celebrate the life and love of Louise Harris, a graduate of the Spiritual Nurturer class of 2008, who died on January 17. Louise was our teacher. In the loving community of that class, she found the space to heal and forgive. When diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, she found herself freed from earthly concerns and she shone with God's unflinching love. Those who knew her intimately--her husband John and sister Eleanor--recognized, as did we all, that this was not a denial of death, but a celebration of life. In addition to sharing with you her final papers, we include John's message of passion which he read at her memorial. We send our love and prayers to John and Eleanor, and all those who will miss her.
The condition of the economy is impacting each of our lives. This is
true too for organizations such as ours. Since we rent retreat space
for our programs, we plan up to 3 years ahead. So if you are
interested in participating in either the two-year program On Being a Spiritual Nurturer or the one-year program The Way of Ministry, it would be a great service to us if you would complete this survey.
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|Q&A Call In and Testing the Waters Retreat
Are you in the midst of discerning whether or not this is your year to apply to the Spiritual Nurturer program? Are the scheduled Testing the Waters retreats inconvenient for you? Then consider joining the core teachers in a question and answer Call In on Sunday, March 15, beginning at 7 p.m. (EST).
Click here for details of the Q&A Call In.
In this call, the teachers will respond to your spiritual, as well as your practical questions. The intent is to assist you in your discernment, not to recruit you to the program.
As a reminder, there is a Testing the Waters day-long retreat at Alexandria Friends Meeting, VA, on March 28.
The requested donation for each day is $25. To register, please send us an email with your contact information and indicating for which retreat day you are registering.
For the prospectus and to download the application and scholarship forms, please visit our website.
|Statement of Faith by Louise Harris
Toward the end of the Spiritual Nurturer program, each participant is asked to write a statement of faith. Here are a few sentences from Louise's statement which she wrote last November.
"At this point in my life, I have recently gotten a diagnosis of pancreatic cancer. From the first, I felt very free. I knew that God was with me and in every cell in my body, that there were no good cells or bad cells. God is in the entire universe, in the winds, snows, smiles of children, sorrows and pains, animals and the creepy crawly things of the earth. God has just given this to me as another challenge, never leaving me alone one moment. I see no duality between death and life, enabling me to potentially live each day afresh."
For a 5-minute audio meditation with her complete statement, click here. (Unfortunately we do not have it read in her own voice and inimitable style.) It can also be read here.
Louise's paper on forgiveness can be read here
God's Passion: A Memorial Message by John Cardarelli
I love you with a fierceness
Blackberry juice lining throats, aftertaste of wild sweet
Morphing butterflies dancing wildly in the sun,
Red-tailed hawk mewing its presence
Sentinel huckleberry tree, blueberry vibrant on windswept
Your loving on logging trail beneath BrownMountain blue lights.
John's complete message can be read here
|Prayers by Viv Hawkins
(Viv wrote these prayers following the second residency of The Way of Ministry program in December 2008.)
High One who enfolds us in You and You in us, thank You. Thank You for
the tension that contained so many interlocking pieces:
· The struggle to open the way so we may see and be seen, hear and be heard, love and be loved by each other as well as You.
· Brueggemann... cry (evoke alternative) doxology... criticism and energizing.
is here that I can't know yet. I feel it inside and around me rattling
like the valve on a pressure cooker. How do I and we open?
willingness for two of us to wrestle in hard places. I know how to
disappear. The other knows how, also. Tears keep me open. The other
keeps her seat. Grace happens.
my peer group, I share about the beggars to whom I gave Rs 3 (6 cents)
in India. I labor knowing that giving anything short of my life is
sin. They help me see through tearful eyes the true exchange: "I see
you and I love you." I forgive myself.
unabashedly into the soft, gentle eyes of one who loves largely.
Having those eyes look trustfully into mine. Being asked what I see
there. Love. Imagining that God might bestow me with one iota of that love so I might pass it on.
calls forth the depths of my pain and longing. My whole body shakes
with the sobs, the yearning for life, for the Kindom of All. How long?
know the struggle with otherness in many places. It torments me
again. I pray with my prayer partner "to be and be with." Keep your
· The diagram shows me the other I have most difficulty taking in. Keep your seat.
fire ablaze. One blow does not extinguish it. Terrified I'll burn
down the building. Fearing myself. Breath of God. Relief.
· Crouched in the corner of that large room swaddled in "grand silence," I assume the small, disappearing place. I keep my seat there healing, preparing.
the cry to mature and fulfill itself. Reaching out, being heard,
lovingly received. Blessed, broken, given, and received. Communion.
While love may be the first motion, it does not always appear as love.
It sometimes manifests as criticism. For one who fears being feared or
mistrusted, criticism can be a self-sacrificial love, risking the
self's need for the greater good.
and resurrection. God of all the nations, help us know when we are
called to leave the dead to bury the dead, call forth Lazarus, or come
upon the tomb where the stone is rolled away? Lament evoking
doxology. "And when the day is done and I see the setting sun, I will
lift my voice and say, 'Thank You, Lord, thank You for one more day.
Thank you for one more day.'"
· Self-in-God-sibling-community. The wine is spilled into the Infinite and we flow there.
You, Blessed One. Praise these blessed ones who serve You in preparing
The Way of Ministry, in preparing us all, Your servants.
came to residency 2 to learn about the ministry: that which we do. I
mostly learned about myself, God, and our relations with community:
that which we are. The latter is far greater a pearl to me. Thank
you, Beckey. Thank you, Laura. Thank you, Marcelle. Thank you,
Barbarajene and Katharine.
You, God. Now, will you let me sleep until at least 6:30am, again.
These three o'clock in the morning appointments are killing me!
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